Could this be just me?
Recently, I battle with my decisions and it has taken a toll on my emotional stability. The truth is, all of these things (recently unfolding), which I battle the authenticity of their worth, are in everyway, all that I’ve wanted but for happenstance’ sake, hadn’t experienced but now is and yet, I don’t feel like “this should be.” What could be happening? The conflict of thoughts is overwhelming. It’s crazy. Draining. Could be unsafe, still. My stomach pops really! Somebody Help!!
How can I describe a moment of elation and many episodes of diverse mind clashes following? How can I explain the plethora of thoughts flooding through my subconscious, per second of each “way forward” opinion? Hormones? No! I’ve had to deal with my hormones and its quests several times, over the years. Could this be the most talked about time —Of confusion, of rage and fury, of discomfort? Before a distinct mark is made?
I crave calmness but how? Read? Pray? Look? Sleep? Talk? Funny, how all of these come by easily but not realistic at the moment for me. Probably a little more of those but then, the courage, I seek. I hear the call(s) of comfort; easy to come by. Just one backward move from where I am and I’ll be there. But I moved on. Nympha, Right?
I’m only engaging the crowd of witnesses surrounding my momentary feeling and asking that it be taken easy on me. I’m human. I must have failed sometimes, but I could still win and even. Really. I’m only human, I’m pressured… the emotions are many and I’m just one. Hey universe, think about it! I’m only human. I just request one day at a time. Granted, I’ll be fine.
Peace to everyone else being overwhelmed by the mighty rush of pressures, especially of responsibilities and subtle wars within. It’s a phase I know and even though I’m in pains while at this, I join hands with you and command a breakthrough. We’ll be just fine.